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Guys I'm still alive I have like no motivation to post updates here- 
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bugzz_g0r3c0r3

July 6 
          
          That was the last time I made an update to anything, it's now July 30th, some problems have gotten worse and some have gotten better 
          
          One, me and my friends don't pull all nighters together anymore, that's not really a bad thing but I miss it tbh
          
          Two, I've dated someone a few times, we've broken up a few times. And I still like them, they're so nice to me and idk what I would do without them..that's the problem, we live way to far apart and I think he khs, I'm very worried about him and I've tried to see if he's ok but he won't answer my texts so I'm even more worried..
          
          Three, tiktok. I'm doing better than before and I'm very proud on how far I've made it. 
          
          Four, roscripts. If you don't know, roscripts or Adrianlmaooo, is quackity's brother. I've watched his YouTube videos since I was Young. A few days ago ppl came out of him being a gr00mer. He was in his 20s and in a relationship with a 12-13-14 girl. He was a creep near Young girls in his Discord server, he even said " I wanna have your baby" to a 13 year old. This is not ok, and is never ok. I've seen ppl try and blame quackity, Alex didn't do anything nor did he know it was happening until now. He does know that if he streams, ppl are gonna talk about it and he doesn't want that. I do not support roscripts anymore after hearing about this and I just feel bad for quackity. Knowing his older brother did this and put the blame on him is just terrible.

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Wow. J-Just wow. I haven't made an update at all- 
          
          Sorry about that, me and my friends have been pulling all nighters and calling on discord  while playing games so that's one reason 
          
          I've been having problems with friends and stuff and I have been in an on and off relationship with someone soooo-

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My friend has has stuff going one in their life (not gonna say what it is) and me, being the person I am, let them vent to me and other stuff. I've promised that I would help the most I could but idk what to do anymore. I haven't been able to vent in a while and if it's to another person, then I haven't been able to in years. I don't know how to vent to someone with having a mental break down and not being able to talk about it untill I forget to do it. I have really bad anxiety and I'm a agoraphobic and one day I had to do something in front of a hundred people and once I got home I had a panic attack for a few hours. 
          
          Sometimes I feel like people are mad at me for stuff I can't control and things I did in the past. It makes me feel so worthless to my friends. 
          
          
          I feel like my love language is the worst thing ever. It's touch and I will hug people to tell them that I care about them bc I'm not good with words at all and now it's peoples least favorite thing about me.

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I don't like vent but I really need to. I've been told to k!ll myself at school and that I talk about my trauma to much. They also say I fake my adhd because I don't take meds, YOU DONT HAVE TO TAKE ADHD MEDS IF YOU HAVE IT. IVE BEEN TOLD THAT THEY SUCK SO I DONT TAKE THEM. 
          
          When I talk about my trauma it's only when someone mentions it or asks me about it. I HATE talking about it because it's about people WHO I CARED ABOUT. I LOVED THEM AND WE MADE PROMISES THAT THEY BROKE. ONE OF THEM TRIED TO K!LL HERSELF AND HER FRIEND SAID IT WAS MY FAULT BECAUSE I SAID I DIDNT LIKE HER (the friend) BACK. I HAD A CRUSH ON HER AND DONT YOU THINK I FELT BAD THAT SHE TRIED TO DO THAT? I LOVED HER AND IT BROKE MY HEART HEARING HER TRY TO DO THAT....... I won't say anything else about this part of it... I won't talk about being told to kms bc it's triggering to some so I won't. I'm sorry I wasted ur time 
          
          Have a good rest of ur day..

bugzz_g0r3c0r3

ᴵ'ᵐ ᵈᵒⁿᵉ ʷⁱᵗʰ ᵖᵉᵒᵖˡᵉ ᵃᵗ ᵗʰⁱˢ ᵖᵒⁱⁿᵗ. ᴵ'ᵛᵉ ᵇᵉᵉⁿ ᵐᵃᵈᵉ ᶠᵘⁿ ᵒᶠ ᶠᵒʳ ᵇᵉⁱⁿᵍ ᴳᵉʳᵐᵃⁿ ᵃᵗ ˢᶜʰᵒᵒˡ, ᵗᵉᵃᶜʰᵉʳˢ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ ᶜᵃʳᵉ ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ⁱᵗ ᵃᵗ ᵃˡˡ. ᴵ'ᵛᵉ ʰᵃᵈ ˢᵒ ᵐᵘᶜʰ ˢᵗʳᵉˢˢ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ᴵ ʰᵃᵈ ᵗᵒ ᵗᵃᵏᵉ ᵃ ᵇʳᵉᵃᵏ ᶠʳᵒᵐ ᵒⁿᵉ ᵒᶠ ᵐʸ ᵐᵒˢᵗ ⁱᵐᵖᵒʳᵗᵃⁿᵗ ᶠʳⁱᵉⁿᵈˢ ᵇᵉᶜᵃᵘˢᵉ ᵒᶠ ᵖᵉᵒᵖˡᵉ 
          
          ɪ'ᴠᴇ ʙᴇᴇɴ ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ꜰᴜɴ ᴏꜰ ꜰᴏʀ ᴡᴀᴛᴄʜɪɴɢ ᴋᴀʀʟ ᴊᴀᴄᴏʙꜱ, ɴɪʜᴀᴄʜᴜ, ᴡɪʟʙᴜʀ ꜱᴏᴏᴛ, ᴀɴᴅ ʙʙʜ ꜱᴏ ᴍᴀɴʏ ᴛɪᴍᴇꜱ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ'ᴠᴇ ᴀʟᴍᴏꜱᴛ ꜱᴛᴏᴘᴘᴇᴅ ᴡᴀᴛᴄʜɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇᴍ. 
          
          
          ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴛᴇʟʟ ᴍᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴡɪʟʟ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ꜰᴏʀɢᴇᴛ ᴍᴇ ᴏʀ ʟᴇᴀᴠᴇ ᴍᴇ ᴏᴜᴛ, ʙᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴅᴏ ᴀɴᴅ ɪᴛ ʜᴜʀᴛꜱ ʙᴄ ɪ ᴛʀᴜꜱᴛᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴇᴍ. ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴘᴇʀꜱᴏɴ ᴡʜᴏ ᴄᴀʀᴇᴅ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴍᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏꜱᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ʟᴇꜰᴛ ᴍᴇ ᴏᴜᴛ ɪꜱ ɢᴏɴᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ɪ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ꜱᴇᴇ ʜᴇʀ ᴀɴʏᴍᴏʀᴇ

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          ʜᴀᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ʟᴏᴠᴇᴅ ᴛᴡɪᴛᴄʜ ꜱᴛʀᴇᴀᴍᴇʀꜱ ꜱᴏ ᴍᴜᴄʜ ᴜ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴍᴇ ᴏɴᴇ? ɪ'ᴠᴇ ᴡᴀɴᴛᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ᴍʏ ɪᴅᴏʟ (ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍ) ꜱᴏ ʙᴀᴅʟʏ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴍᴇ ᴀ ꜱᴛʀᴇᴀᴍᴇʀ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ ᴛʜᴀᴛ. ɪ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴊᴜᴅɢᴇᴅ ᴀᴛ ꜱᴄʜᴏᴏʟ. ᴡʜʏ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ʟɪᴋᴇ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴀɴᴅ ɴᴏᴛ ɢᴇᴛ ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ꜰᴜɴ ᴏꜰ ꜰᴏʀ ɪᴛ?