I know your not Ashton. I know your not. But this will give me a bit of closer. I'm about to leave. Forever. My life is aboslute shit. No lie. I cut and I take to many pills every night. I've always wanted to meet you guys. But I never got to. I'm just gonna write to the fake you and get my feelings out. Tbh I wasn't a fan from the beginning. I just happened to stumble upon you goofballs right when the time was right. I'm sorry I let you down. But tonight I end it all. So goodbye.
Hello, I don't know if I'm too late. I hope I'm not. Just know that I love you and the boys do too. I'm here if you ever want to talk. Please don't give up.
Still not sure why risk reading some of the fanfics with you in them. Some if the comments too. Good luck getting through a lot of them. Some I can't even Finnish... *shudder*