c00chilil0v3r

i haven’t been on here for a couple months and there are so many notifications 

Mason709332

@yourlocal_potterhead I’ll explain rn if you didn’t understand
          	  Maybe I’m just sensitive and I shouldn’t be bothered by these things but when a random person tells me not to give up or that I’m worth it my brain automatically thinks the worst.
          	  I start overthinking and the conclusion is that nobody in real life cares about me enough that someone who doesn’t even know me has to comfort me.
          	  Very far fetched ik haha I just can’t take good things
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Mason709332

@yourlocal_potterhead I dont know about this person but sometimes these random people telling me not to give up actually makes me feel worse, just be careful
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c00chilil0v3r

i haven’t been on here for a couple months and there are so many notifications 

Mason709332

@yourlocal_potterhead I’ll explain rn if you didn’t understand
            Maybe I’m just sensitive and I shouldn’t be bothered by these things but when a random person tells me not to give up or that I’m worth it my brain automatically thinks the worst.
            I start overthinking and the conclusion is that nobody in real life cares about me enough that someone who doesn’t even know me has to comfort me.
            Very far fetched ik haha I just can’t take good things
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Mason709332

@yourlocal_potterhead I dont know about this person but sometimes these random people telling me not to give up actually makes me feel worse, just be careful
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c00chilil0v3r

PLEASE- they fuckin blocked wattpad for me on my school computer, i fookin hate my life

c00chilil0v3r

@HerFairDumbAzz EXACTLY (i’ve turned to AO3? though i’ve never used it before)
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HerFairDumbAzz

They did the same to me! Do you know how many kids at my school go on here? Two. That’s it. And you’re going to ban it so me and two other kids can’t go on it????? How rude 
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c00chilil0v3r

i need to not feel like sh!t so i'm going to shuffle one direction and the boys

tpwkpark28

@nyltiac_28 okay good luck <33
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c00chilil0v3r

and read some happy fics
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c00chilil0v3r

i am literally so pissed right now. harry's management is making him seem like a terrible person and how he's dating olivia wilde. this is making him seem like he slept his way to get the role. and he's not even wearing a mask. his label and management are screwing him over and making him seem like a terrible person. this pr stunt is pissing me off so much

c00chilil0v3r

stream hs1 and hs2 while you're here
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c00chilil0v3r

uh basically, i was trying to get into my 4th and 5th period classes today, and i was kicked out of my 4th and i didn't know why until i emailed him and asked why. he said "oh that was you? your name seemed pretty sketchy" PLEASE MY NAME WAS wh0re4erikalinder I FORGOT TO CHANGE IT BACK I HATE MY LIFE

tpwkpark28

@nyltiac_28 oh well.. that's fun..
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c00chilil0v3r

@tpwkpark28 i changed it while i was on zoom with one of my friends last night and yeah...
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c00chilil0v3r

i don't know if anyone has felt like this but i just kinda wanted to get it off my chest cause this is where i rant but i prefer they/them pronouns. it's as simple as that. people use they/them pronouns as a singular all the time, but people don't know they are doing it because it's subconscious. when i told my mom i use they/them pronouns, she told me that they cannot be a singular. i was very upset. my dad then tells me that the internet is telling me who i should be, and i'll never get to look androgynous. when i cut my hair shorter my grandpa asked why i did it and i said i wanted to look more androgynous, and he just laughed. when my grandpa hears me talking about LGBTQ+ he says i'm "too young to know that yet" and it really aggravates me. the only people who respect me and care about me as a genuine person are my conservative family members. and that doesn't sit right with me that my LIBERAL family doesn't respect me. i just don't understand. so when my family uses she/her pronouns with me, i feel like i can't say anything or correct them out of fear that they are going to get mad at me and tell me who i should be. and i am scared about how they completely ignore me as a person and i'm really tired of it but i don't know how to get them to stop.

spenom

im so sorry you have to deal with that :( if you ever need to talk im always available <33
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tpwkpark28

@nyltiac_28 I'm so sorry that you have to deal with that and I know it must not be easy to talk to them about it but just keep trying and ignoring them. <3
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c00chilil0v3r

uh, told my mom i use they/them pronouns and she completely dismissed them and said i'm a singular person and kept using she/her pronouns. i feel great right now (this is the same woman who thinks being gay is a choice)

BiscutsOnRice

@nyltiac_28 I don’t think its rude, and I understand sometimes hearing what other people go through when you are experiencing the same thing helps so I’m glad I did :)
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c00chilil0v3r

@BenzoClownLarry yes you're right, and i love how my dad has always used 'male' nicknames like 'son', 'dude', 'bro' just stuff like that makes me really happy
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c00chilil0v3r

@HerFairDumbAzz yes true, or my unconditional love for louis tomlinson
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c00chilil0v3r

it has come to my attention that my sister can see my posts, and she saw my post about getting railed, long story short, i will be jumping off of a bridge. 
          (grammarly is saying that this text is joyful, idk how jumping off of a bridge is joyful but you do you grammarly)

c00chilil0v3r

lol its kinda funny when i misgender myself and no one in my family knows what being non-binary means. also, i'm cool with being a girl, but like wanting my pronouns to be he/they? idk, gender dysphoria is fun.

c00chilil0v3r

well sort of
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c00chilil0v3r

okay its been solved: they/them
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