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I’m so sorry, things popped up during these last few days with school 
          and I wasn’t able to finish my st janes application that I already filled in for some…

My favourite quote is, 
          
          "I've wanted to die for so long, i just decided to live." 
          
          I think i should start caring a little bit less, because everytime i do care, nobody does the same for me. I should start laughing more. Start leaving the house more, no matter how much my father protests. Start actually fucking living.

does it ever get btter

I'd rather be nobody than be like everybody.

WHY IS MY SKIN CRACKING OPEN OH MY GOD

tb to when i was fighting to stay awake at five am, the sun was coming up, i was just doing an all nighter, my dad was awake, and i heard my mum belting out "WE ARE CHARLIE KIRKKKKKKKK" from the living room.

I loveloveLOVE the idea of a book starting with an epilogue, and ending in a prologue. Specifically a book where everyone dies really traumatic deaths, but before, they were as happy as butterflies. Like, it starts off with the last character alive (one that most likely wishes it were them who died, and not their beloved friends/family) reflecting, but not be like "oh blah blah blah everyone died, sally slit her throat, jenny fell of a building, blah blahbalhaka" like no: i want it to be DEEP ASF. like, phycological lay ruined before even fully starting the book, but not spoiling everything. Then, it starts off happy, whoopsadaisyyoohoo, soft as a kitten's fur, but slowly goes downhill. Like slowburn, but utterly tragic murders and suicides. Then, when finnishing, it ends off with a prologue. Of a glimpse of everyone's friendship, before everyone fucking died. Preferably when everyone was significantly younger, like kids—pre-teens—early teens. And it shows the characters being completely opposite of what they were turned into during the tragedy of it all. Like, the grumpy one is giggling their ass off while rolling in the mud with dog shit in their hair. Like, make the "prologue" kill people more than the people actually killed in the book. Make it make people SOBBING under tables, seeing their favourite characters so innocently pure. So HAPPY. Make people miss the characters even more after seeing them all together. Like seeing the crew of five survive before they got stuck in the woods. Like seeing sidney and her mum playing before her death and the ghost face shit. There are obviously better examples/methaphors/references and words to use, but that's all I could think of so fuck off.
          
          Idk just an idea wink wink
          
          
          Note:::::: i have so many book ideas oml.

Does anyone get an eery nostalgic feeling when they think of doki doki literature club even though they've only recently discovered it?? Just me??? Mkay...

average weight for eleven year old female standing at 4'11 in america

The urge to die my hair red