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╱   cb or spam yesyes 

╱   before posting any headcanons  —  i would like to confirm this man doesn’t know how to cook ,,  that ends my ted talk 

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 ╱   i did it  —  dad ignorer frfr 

@sweetmcss 
          
          he still had his little hold on her  ,  afraid that if he lets go  .  his whole world would be tumbling down within the second he lets go of her for a split second  ,  feeling as if someone was clawing his back . .  wanting to bring him down but when he’s with yumeka  .  a sense of peace suddenly washed over him as if all the troubling thoughts that lingered in his mind went away   “  i  . . .  like you yumeka  ,  i’m just afraid you’ll get hurt if you’re involved with me  .  “

@sweetmcss 
          
          a small sigh escaped his lips  ,  running a hand through his hair as he closed his eyes  .  he would be lying if he said he wasn’t scared  ,  of course he was but his main priority is to keep the rfa safe —  as well as yumeka  “  yumeka  . . .  you’re perfect just the way you are  . .  “  he gently reached over to her  ,  wrapping his arms around her as he rests his forehead against her shoulder   “  thank you . .  for having feelings for a man such as myself  . .  i seriously don’t deserve you  .  “

ຯ❏͜ᰰ ᬼ⃟ @sweetmcss ༬᩠ೃྀ
          
          he shook his head though he felt as he she was there ,  not physically but mentally  .  as if eyes were at him most of the time  ,  his fists slightly clenched at what she had said  .  he’d lay down his life to protect the rfa because to him ,  they’re family  “  it’s alright if it’s me  ,  i wouldn’t want anyone else going through the same things i do  .  “  a small smile tugging into the corners of his lips as he didn’t expect that what she would say next shocked him  “  yumeka  . . .  you  ?  why  ?  there are a lot of other people suitable for you  ,  i don’t deserve someone like you  .  “

ຯ❏͜ᰰ ᬼ⃟ @sweetmcss ༬᩠ೃྀ
          
          he nodded to what the other had asked  “  yes  ,  blind  .  if i could remember  . . .  i saw a glimpse of rika then before she could do anything else ,  i woke up  .  “  he said ,  his turquoise coloured hues shifting from the ground to yumeka  “   it’s hard  ,  knowing her  .  she could go through lengths to make someone’s life a living nightmare  . . .  i don’t want anyone else getting hurt or involved with her  ,  for the sake of the group  . . .  other people  ?  don’t be ridiculous  . .  if there were other people who have the capability to love a man such as myself  —  where could they be  ?  “  

ຯ❏͜ᰰ ᬼ⃟ @sweetmcss ༬᩠ೃྀ
          
          he looked down at her hand that was placed on his arm  ,  he didn’t realise how calming her touch was  .  his eyes followed her to the couch  ,  standing there in silence for a few moments before he made his way to her  .  sitting down on the couch  ,  his elbows on his knees as his hands her clasped together  “  me and . . .  rika has another fight today  .  she started to utter strange things as to me being  ‘  cleansed  ‘  of some sort  ,  she started to resort to violence somehow  ..   “  unclasping his hands and rubbed his side  ,  leaning back against the couch as he stared aimlessly at the floor  “  every time i close my eyes  ,  i’d see a glimpse me being . .  how should i say this  —  blind  ?  “

ຯ❏͜ᰰ ᬼ⃟ @sweetmcss ༬᩠ೃྀ
          ;;  such a blessing  :’))
          
          
          before he knew it  ,  he was running  .  running to the only person he could rely on ,  aside from jumin of course  .  he ran to where yumeka lived  ,  he was well aware of the time and wouldn’t be surprised if no one answered the door but he had to atleast try  .  as he was infront of the door  ,  he was knocking on it  .  waiting for a couple of minutes until someone opened it  ,  there stood yumeka  .  a small smile on his face  “  ah  . . .  i’m sorry to bother you this late . .  “  he said ,  a saddened expression washed over his features once again   “  it’s  . . . i don’t feel like being alone tonight. . .  “  he gave her a silent thank you as he walked into her home  ,  looking around a bit until he faced her  “  am i bothering you  ?  if i am  ,  im sorry  —  i could just go . .  “