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my therapist, husband and bestie all want me to try writing again so hopefully in time i will be back! i miss you all and thank you so much for understanding 

fun fact, postpartum psychosis and depression when your kids are dead will in fact result in a stay in the psych ward! buttttt im out now and slowly doing better 

my love you take your time… anything you need we’re actually here - we truly understand any step you take next… i am so deeply sorry you had to endure this I cant even imagine what you’re going through but just know you’re are so strong & you’re amazing in your day to day life , & in our wtp writing wrld you’re so awesome that we enjoy your stories!  - just now that us girl do love you & do support you wherever you do , just know all the love you have in your heart is amazing & you love your babies forever & you be sure you always love yourself you’re strong will minded woman!!! - take your time- i am so deeply sorry i hope everyday gets easier for you - your friend bell ♡ 
          (we’re still snapchat friends if you need to txt) 

I don’t know if I’m coming back. As you all know, I was pregnant with twins due in April. On December 26th I ended up delivering both boys, they were both sleeping when they entered this world. It’s been a traumatic and heartbreaking experience and I wish like hell I could use writing as an escape but I can’t with this. I spent nearly 6 months getting to know my boys and they are all I can bring myself to think of. I want the whole world to know them but they didn’t think the world was good enough.
          

twin boys?! i get to experience wwe smack down in my livingroom for the rest of my life ..!

pregnancy update: 
          
          IM HAVING TWINS!?!?!!!

y’know who built this house.. lavender. she is the og and idk where I’d be without her

so I just realized basket case is 3 years old.. when the heck did that happen 

if anyone has a pregnancy trope fic they’re working on and wants any pointers… feel free to ask cause it ain’t all that easy and lavender had it easy when I wrote her pregnant.. ive literally been gagging trying to drink water in the first trimester 

I wanna write so bad but im in the trenches of this pregnancy.. my husband is so lucky he’s on a detachment rn cause id be blaming him