before i sleep let me yapp a little xixi
lately i’ve been realizing something, that
the more i learn about things, the more i’m forced to admit that, i’m actually limited :(
and i used to HATE that idea.
i used to believe humans are NOT limited. like we can do anything, be anything, learn everything if we try hard enough. and yes, we can learn a lot. we can grow. we can improve. we can dream big.
but reality keeps reminding me that the time is limited, also the energy, as well as the budget. i think even the brain has its limits.
it’s not about living small. obviously not. dreams should be big, actions even bigger.
it’s just... there’s something bitter about realizing that because we’re human. we can’t do everything at once. we can’t master every skill. we can’t pursue all our dreams in one lifetime…
so, maybe growing up is not about shrinking dreams. maybe it’s about choosing which one deserves this limited time. (which is hard and sad)
idk. just late night thoughts.;)))
will sleep before starting another existential crisis hahah
