I fear turning blind THE most. I fear I wont be able to read then.
I love writing reading and art in gereal and i LOVE chinese culture, books, shows etc. Keeping myself busy all the time to avoid the temptation atm. I slept at 3 am day before yesterday ,at 1 am yesterday. Today i plan 2 or 3 am. Yesterday my hand was too tired from writing so much that my pinky finger pain so gave it a rest.
I am too excited to study that i cant sleep and i cant sleep until i am satisfied.
I watch some BL edits when i take break. Avoid chinese tho bc I love them too much