Carnival

Heyyy im still alive lol

Also.
          No, I did not get any sleep.
          Yes. Yes it is 5:46am so what-
          
          

Finished watching Bungou Stray Dogs (Along with the movie) 
          Lemme tell you one thing, I love Dazai and his character. Along with Oda and Chuuya. Seriously, go watch the anime.
          
          (But first off lemme add a C/W or T/W in the things that the anime has just in case if you’re bothered by any of these things if you do wish to watch the show)
          
          -Blood
          -Some gore
          -Trauma
          -Suicide attempts (MANY OF THEM LOL)
          -Death
          -Violence
          -Ptsd (pretty sure?)
          -Weapons (Knives, Guns, Swords etc.)
          -Slight swearing(?)
          -Manipulation 
          -Gangs
          -Crime
          And some others I can’t list bc it’ll be too long.
          
          It’s not too bad imo (apart from that suicidal maniac doing bad stuff to himself *COUGH COUGH* DaZai *COUGH*) 
          
          There’s also an AU light novel which is nice and I’m currently reading it. I’m thinking abt also starting the manga. HOPEFULL, there’ll be a season 4 (probs will since the manga is currently ongoing, but the arc must stop before starting the anime again).
          
          Overall, I would def recommend.
          

This year hasn’t started the best-
          It’s sad to say, but I know it won’t get better. The world won’t get better and it breaks me but oh well.
          “Corrupted and selfish old men twist the hearts of young and brave soldiers to fight for them”. In other words, this Earth is fucked up and so are the leaders on it.
          
          Funny. 
          
          Who the fuck even thought of owning a planet? Seems pretty foolish to me.
          
          

Merry Christmas Eve (to people who celebrate xmas and are in est)
          
          

Wow I’m not dead.
          
          Hello I guess

Lol I’m feeling so fucking shit I nearly killed myself today. Anyways, only thing keeping me alive is that I’m getting a new dog on Saturday ✌️

To anyone who used to do the WoF rp with me, please go check out the latest chapter of the WoF RP that I made. 

Holy shit it’s been ages. 
          
          Hey guys, I’m back (although not fully back). I’ve dissapeared for a while so why not say the current state I’m at shall we?
          
          I fucking hate life. It’s getting worse by the day and everything is shit. My scores have dropped, my joy is gone, my will to live has left me. I hate my parents and myself. I do not wish to live anymore and always think about ending my life but I have no idea how that would impact my friends... or if they would even care at all. Everything is temporary, so even if I were to kill myself my friends would care for about a week and move on. This isn’t me saying that I want attention, this is just saying that I basically don’t matter. I’m not worth anything I have. I literally fell into tears because I felt like I wasn’t worth anything. My friends, the roof on my head, the food I eat. I don’t deserve it. I don’t deserve to be happy, I’m just a piece of garbage who should be better. Even me writing this shows that I’m weak. I’m sorry. 
          
          Apart from my undying hate towards myself, nothing much has happened. I’m getting a new dog close to the end of the year. I’ve gotten a bit better at art. I’m REALLY into the My Hero Academia anime now (I simp for Hawks so much omfgggg) and yeah.
          
          Please give a comment on this saying how you guys are doing. I’m sorry for being inactive but my life is going downhill.
          
          Love you all and thank you for helping me in the past <3

Lmfao. Yagami Yato is one of the thing keeping me alive rn