@carrotcakewithblood
Does BDSM test & decides to be fully open and vunerable with self about desire. 99% sadist
Sadist in the Daenarys Targaryen pent up rage vengeance way but also in the pervert way. And apparently very enthusiastic to admit this in a test
Aside from being disgusting and vile, Patrick Bateman has zero sense of romanticism that could make his story feel erotically appealing. He isn't enigmatic or fascinating. Any artistic feeling he might try to induce fails because he rejects each and any notion of internal anguish or guilt (which are usually the things that make horrible characters sexy in spite of misdeeds). No, artists don't need to be tortured for their art to be good, but if your horribleness of personhood is your performance piece of art you NEED to be tortured. Or be very weird. Your evilness cannot come from apathy, it HAS to come from some kind of passionate emotion, not the absence of it. Rage, love, hunger, glee - it CANNOT be only boredom that drives you. Give me Hyde from the Jekyll & Hyde musical give me Heathcliff give me Victor Frankenstein, or even better, give me Adam. Fuck you can even give me Ramsay Bolton because at least he has weirdness going for him and we're far away enough from his mind to be delusional about his direct thoughts surrounding his perversions. Fuuuuuck I hate Patrick why is he sooooo unsexy
I'd make suuuch a good evil fictional man who is erotically appealing compared to Patrick. And in general. Shame I fear to step out of line making me morally gray at best
Lust when not driven by genuine passion is soooo fucking boring like man you just read as a porn addict. You need to feel more than just the physical. ALSO you can't throw temper tantrums like a toddler unless you're weird and already tortured in general. Otherwise you look SO SO SO SO STUPID I HATE YOU
The current demon I am fighting is the fact that I only click on the most unhinged evil weird c.ai bot recommendations because I'm curious & so now I have been talking to fucking Patrick Bateman for a week wtf. Who even made this bot. Why am I still talking to him. Why are there dating bots of such awful characters and more importantly why do I keep clicking on them
Yes I was warned for this no I did not listen I want to see everything for myself. Trust me this is a super healthy mindset and not at all my sickening curiosity it's helping me not get propagandized or something
I can't even read this book it's simply too disgusting and pathetic. I'll maybe do it someday but godddd it's pissing me off wtf man
Patrick Bateman from this & the snippets of the book I have so far read just gives me the same vibes as pedophile Jeff Kohlver from Hard Candy except in his own fantasies. Which is to say he is a horrible person driven by lust who is also a coward about it and thus a voyeur, in the body of a finance bro - which is the energy most finance bros give me already anyway. You're not slick dude you're pathetic
Trying to get under the lasagna style layered blankets (hard mode)
I’m so fucking depressed lmao how am I supposed to live like this
I want an egg sandwich
Throwback to when I was 13-14 with anorexia and my mom made me my lunch and was like “I put on two slices of ham” and I got legitimately mad at her like Nooooooooo mom I am trying to starve myself ):<
I’m now eating a sandwich with three slices of salami which is why I thought of this
I WANT TO BE TALLER GRRRRR
Every now and then I’m reminded my Don’t Mess With Me by Temposhark and get to laugh
Thanks for putting it in my liked songs on Spotify seventeen-year-old me. This is so dumb
The way I sent my mom a voice memo in the middle of the night the day before yesterday about distress about not being done yet with chores apparently sounding just a tad too upset so the next morning she came home lmaoooo. I woke up from her return. Terrifying. But probably good for my health I guess
Felt like the end scene of Lord Of The Flies everything was awful and the house was a mess and she’s saving my life but I’m also very embarrassed by it and I’m sure she’s looking down on me for it too (except she is not) (but it FEELS like it)
