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Update. I in fact may have BPD. I thought I did not but I had a conversation about it with someone and now it is actually so obvious. How did I not realize this
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@carrotcakewithblood HASTAG IT’S ALRIGHT!!! (that phrase specifically came from those wojak memes HAHAHAHAH)
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@carrotcakewithblood SHDHSUDJSJS IM SORRY (i did intend to say this as to me agreeing with your point on how bpd is so infantilized by a wide majority of people that tries to disguise to not have their pride/ ego be diminished. i should’ve explained it to you before, i apologize)
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One of my besties (the girl who's also my ex) told me today at our hangout that before she knew I had DID she wondered if I perhaps had BPD due to my at times fickle behavior which to me is extremely funny. Me at 15 was not as consistent in emotions as I at the time thought I was
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Was fearing for my life when I got a notification on here that I’d somehow said something improper again. Was an ad
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Growing up I stopped caring about love triangles being cliché entireeelyyyyy. Also because I don't consume a lot of romance but honestly? She has massive game and everybody wants to do her? Good for her!!!!!
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Ruination distraction and ruination imminent threat that will strike you out of nowhere. I like love triangles they just need to be evil
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Haven't seen the Interview With The Vampire TV show yet but I believe this is also just Louis' relationships actually
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On that note I also realized how much I used to mask when I was young in ways I hadn’t even realized. I always wondered why some of my stories/projects sucked so much and lost so much of my usual whimsy (however poorly executed at the time) and then realized those were all stories I wrote with others. I even explicitly remember feeling like I had to match their creativity/ideas/style, even in CREATIVE PROJECTS, otherwise it wouldn’t be “fair to others” (if I outshone them) and they might feel bad about themselves. And then that made me realize just how much I must have been doing that in my interactions outside of creating too. I watered myself down so much to fit in. I didn’t allow myself to show I was good at something because I realized it made me not fit in anymore. I knew who I was when alone but around others I felt like I was practically nobody, because I would’ve been too much had I really existed, and I couldn’t find a replacement identity
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I was talking about Game Of Thrones with my mother and mentioned that Joffrey is essentially what my elementary to middle school bullies were like and as I said it I was like Wait. Wait but they literally were
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For some reason I used to lie and say it was mostly girls that used to bully me but that’s literally just not true. It was pretty much only boys. I just meant to separate at the time with how boys are bullied by other boys and for some reason felt people wouldn’t understand if I hadn’t been bullied by girls. Like surely I had beef with some girls but the full on bullying/stalking/ruining my belongings/trying to touch me was all from boys.
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Ok I’m okay again I spoke to my mom
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I feel so ugly I don’t wanna be hereeeee
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I WAS BANNED LMAOOOO