castielangelfallen33
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i hate when people tell me that we're forever and they'll never leave me. bc now i know that eventually everyone leaves me. im just a piece of shit and i deserve nothing i get. i dont deserve happiness bc every time i get slightly happy, it gets ripped away. people walk away all the time and i know its my fault. ig what im trying to say is if you're gonna leave, go ahead and do it and spare me the heartache. but if you really wanna stay and help me fight through this then do it. if you lose faith that its gonna get better, then im gonna lose faith that it gets better. and for the shit i said at softball practice that one time, im sorry. im a fuck up. i just couldnt keep it in anymore. so sorry. maybe i should just leave and write a note explaining why i did it. not like anyone would really miss me. nobody here gives a fuck about me. im nothing but a girl that they own and boss around and do their bidding. im just a puppet.........