castielxdean

i’m still at a loss for words as i process this tragedy. it’s hard to wrap my head around the fact that liam is gone as well as the things that have come to light about his character over these past few weeks. part of me mourns for the boy we grew up with, who struggled with so much in silence and was failed by the adults around him, so that we could smile and feel seen as young girls and boys struggling with our own identities/lives. i don’t believe in making excuses for grown adults when their behavior and actions negatively impact others, and i won’t start now. while i mourn liam as the person i knew him to be, the one who helped shaped my childhood and cultivate my safe-spaces, i can acknowledge that he may have done terrible things and i carry deep sympathy for those who suffered as a result of them. i pray that he and his family are able to find peace, and i pray those affected by his actions are able to heal and find their own sense of peace. 
          	
          	and for the record: this was a horrible tragedy that NO ONE is to blame for, and i really hope other fans realize this before more people end up hurt by this need to point fingers and find a “culprit” behind the whys of this situation.
          	
          	rip liam, sending lots of love to my fellow directioner brothers and sisters. i mourn and pray for you all too. keep your heads up and stay strong, don’t let others reduce or minimize your feelings of grief. your feelings are valid, you are seen and you are heard.  <3

Joelsziam25

Hey excuse me are you going to end your stories including the one of your other account?

Joelsziam25

@castielxdean Its okay just please dont delete It :(
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castielxdean

@Joelsziam25 it’s all a bit hard to say right now. i’ve pretty much lost all interest in ziam (and one direction as a whole) for awhile, and though i love the stories i’ve created involving them, i do feel that it’s a bit in poor taste to continue writing them, i guess? like i don’t think i have it in me to delete them, especially knowing how much people seem to enjoy them and knowing that it can bring comfort in this time. so i really can’t answer that at this moment.!
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castielxdean

i’m still at a loss for words as i process this tragedy. it’s hard to wrap my head around the fact that liam is gone as well as the things that have come to light about his character over these past few weeks. part of me mourns for the boy we grew up with, who struggled with so much in silence and was failed by the adults around him, so that we could smile and feel seen as young girls and boys struggling with our own identities/lives. i don’t believe in making excuses for grown adults when their behavior and actions negatively impact others, and i won’t start now. while i mourn liam as the person i knew him to be, the one who helped shaped my childhood and cultivate my safe-spaces, i can acknowledge that he may have done terrible things and i carry deep sympathy for those who suffered as a result of them. i pray that he and his family are able to find peace, and i pray those affected by his actions are able to heal and find their own sense of peace. 
          
          and for the record: this was a horrible tragedy that NO ONE is to blame for, and i really hope other fans realize this before more people end up hurt by this need to point fingers and find a “culprit” behind the whys of this situation.
          
          rip liam, sending lots of love to my fellow directioner brothers and sisters. i mourn and pray for you all too. keep your heads up and stay strong, don’t let others reduce or minimize your feelings of grief. your feelings are valid, you are seen and you are heard.  <3

castielxdean

and if i said i was back from the dead...then what?