I'll be honest I felt the same way when I found out what being transgender was. I had these feelings and all but like... I didnt believe it. I was like maybe I am just a tomboy. Like I said it's different. And maybe you're not trans maybe its gender envy. I dont know and I wont tell you what you are and how you feel. You just have to find yourself. Its not an easy road. And its not some thing you can figure out in a day. Take your time! Experiment with things, whatever the outcome, you'll be happy with the journey :)