I’m actually so fcking mad right now because I accidentally deleted THREE WHOLE CHAPTERS I wrote today. like actual full chapters. hours of writing. my notes app kept lagging like crazy, freezing, not responding, and then I clicked one thing, ONE. and suddenly everything was just gone. No warning. No “are you sure?” no mercy. just disappeared like it never existed. I’m staring at my screen in disbelief because how does that even happen??? I didn’t even mean to delete anything. I was just trying to scroll or tap out of the lag and BOOM! empty. my heart literally dropped. all that effort, all that momentum, the emotions I poured into those scenes, the dialogue I was proud of gone in seconds because an app decided to betray me. what makes it worse is that I was on a roll. like locked in, inspired, brain finally cooperating for once. and now my motivation just got body slammed into the floor. people who don’t write won’t get it, but losing chapters feels like losing pieces of your brain. you can’t just “rewrite it easily.” It’s not just words it’s timing, feeling, flow. I’m honestly trying not to lose it right now. I want to scream, cry, throw my phone, uninstall everything, and question why I even bother sometimes. this is the kind of frustration that makes you just sit there silently angry, replaying the moment like, why did I click that… :3
