celestialval

in case anyone is wondering about me (which im sure no one is) i’ve gotten so much better. I’ve gotten therapy and worked on myself so much. the person you all met who was depressing and made bad decisions all the time was on different meds and didnt know she had BPD. but im well informed of all the disorders I have now and I’m still working on myself. I’m not perfect but I’m happier and I even had my first boyfriend and girlfriend (irl) i hope you guys are doing well and im really sorry to all those i hurt in the process of finding myself and fixing myself. theres no words i can say to undo the things i said and did but I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me some day, and if you don’t thats okay too! i wish you all the best in life regardless.
          	
          	God bless <3

celestialval

in case anyone is wondering about me (which im sure no one is) i’ve gotten so much better. I’ve gotten therapy and worked on myself so much. the person you all met who was depressing and made bad decisions all the time was on different meds and didnt know she had BPD. but im well informed of all the disorders I have now and I’m still working on myself. I’m not perfect but I’m happier and I even had my first boyfriend and girlfriend (irl) i hope you guys are doing well and im really sorry to all those i hurt in the process of finding myself and fixing myself. theres no words i can say to undo the things i said and did but I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me some day, and if you don’t thats okay too! i wish you all the best in life regardless.
          
          God bless <3

celestialval

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<3 thank you to those who stuck around and put up with my bullshit and gave me a shoulder to cry on and a friendly hand to hold, thank you for being there for me when i needed it....you all are so very cherished and loved and i hope you realize that one day...this life is yours to live. kiss who you want, love who you want...BE who you want. you only get one life to live so make it the best one, take all the chances...live life on the edge. i know its hard....i know its scary but you'll be okay...i know it isnt easily to believe but youll be okay one day. im proud of you for waking up everyday and pushing through this, you're strong as hell love...
          
          I see you, keep going okay? if not for you or your family or friends...keep going for your future, for the things you'll never get to see...the things you'll never get to do or hear...I want you to live your life...I want you to take care of yourself, you hear me? your life is so very precious and you are seen, you are heard...you will not be forgotton. dont end it, i cant promise things get better but you'll never truly know if you dont live long enough to see it for yourself
          
          keep fighting, you can do this.
          
          
          goodbye <3 i love you
          
          sincerely, eclipse xoxo

celestialval

and to those ive hurt im so so sorry...i was an awful person and im trying to get better but i dont have much help at the moment, im trying my best to keep going and its getting harder each day but im fighting like hell, i lost everybody who loved me because of myself, because of my own actions...maybe im better off alone, without a friend, without a lover, without them.... 
            
            i try not to blame myself but when theres a bunch of fingers pointed out they all end up at me, and i accept it...i was an awful person and i hurt so many people including myself - though maybe i deserved it as revenge for those who i've wronged. either way i hope you are happy and i wish you the best...
            
            im no longer active on this account and if i use wattpad i might use @moondipper so dont message me on here or i wont see it
            
            thank you all for the love and support
            
            im sorry, goodbye
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celestialval

i dont know if you'll ever see this or if you're still here but I miss you rena hope you're doing well wherever you are...I love you <33 and same goes for you kei, and jaiden <33

celestialval

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but i had to delete my discord account because i was immature as hell at the time and did dumb shit
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celestialval

i shouldnt have left you, you were an awesome friend...
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celestialval

i miss u jaiden a lot
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celestialval

➽ MY BOUNDARIES ❀

celestialval

dont be creepy
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celestialval

know that i have boundaries and i will block you if you break them
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celestialval

if you know my real name, or know me irl keep it to yourself. I have a penname for a reason.
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