Sofia

ty for adding me to ur reading list!! :)

It's been a month since I left u and I still don't miss what we had, no tattoo, no more restrictions nor responsibilities, guess I should feel bad but I honestly don't, should be probably crying over u but am living my life more fully, still got a shit ton of problems but u ain't one of them

TW: mentions of self harm and depressive thoughts
          
          I have really started to question my life lately, since therapy has made me think of the fact that the job I studied for 3 years and thought was my dream job, actually may not be that at all. And yes I haven't cut for a while but I've noticed I still try to harm myself in other ways. And a lot of shit is making me anxious and it's been really hard to get out of bed. I literally have no ideas nor inspiration to do literally anything and it's driving me nuts. I feel like I have been the shittiest friend, girlfriend, daughter, you name it lately and I don't know what to do. Some days I just feel like it would be just easier to end it all. I don't feel like I'm worth living, but maybe for tonight I'll just leave it and try to sleep....

I'm so done with being called "pretty", like when i say I look really fucking ugly and then go like no you're pretty and when I ask why the only answer is because you are and I 'm so fucking done with that. Like please tell me what there is to like about me and not just that I'm objectively nice to look at, please it's just making me hate myself more ffs

Sometimes I feel like I have my life on autopilot...
          
          I just go through my days and they just pass me... 
          
          And when something new happens my whole life crashes
          
          I don't know what I should do or how I should react
          
          Nahh it's propably just me overreacting, maybe I really should shut my phone for a week or smth...

I wanna dye my bangs purple oops-

I feel alone even though I want to be alone. I'm tired even in my sleep. I feel bad even if everything is okay. Blood is flowing more than my tears. I feel nothing and still I feel so empty. I'm so broken but still I smile.

Thank you for adding my book to your reading list ❤️

I wanna get hit by a car. Today's mood.

Daily reminder 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          I fukin love u