cella

[ content & trigger warning: mention of "suicide" ]
          
          september is suicide prevention month and september 10 (yesterday) was actually suicide prevention day. as someone who have lost a family and friend to it, and who have struggled mentally enough to harm herself, i want to help eradicate, and if not, then lessen, the stigma surrounding around mental health. 
          
          our brain is just another organ in our body too. to some, it doesn't work like how it's supposed to. and if there are treatments and medicines in order to aid and heal the other organs in our body when they encounter problems, the same just goes with our brain. oftentimes, the solution is never just a simple cheer up, laban lang, it's just in your mind, etc. the solution can be proper medical diagnosis, medicine, therapy, and others and it's something no one should ever be ashamed of. help is there and it's not shameful to grab unto it. end the stigma.
          
          and if you ever happen to need anyone to talk to, as a friend, know that i am ready to lend an ear, a hand, and a shoulder. my DMs are open and safe if you want to let something out your chest. but if you ever need a better choice, you may check the hotlines present here: https://findahelpline.com/countries/ph 
          
          i know that asking for help and opening up is never easy but know that you are never alone and someone will always be willing to listen. and when you're ready, know that you will be heard.  hugs with consent to everyone who needs it. 

NOTICE.
          
          good evening sa everything~ 
          
          i will be unpublishing all the fanfiction compilations (namely: avery imagines, celestial wonders, half-baked daydreams, and archer's reverie) in my wp profile by August 31, 2024. 
          
          it's a compilation of yearning and brainrot-ing towards characters and worlds that brought me comfort along the way so they're really special to me. they became a way for me to express my words in ways i didn't know how to on my own. at some point, to me, they felt like an extension of a story that has long been over and for someone who doesn't know how to move on easily, they truly helped me cope. i will forever treasure them. 
          
          but due to personal reasons, i made peace with the decision that i have to keep them in my drafts na lang.
          
          so, thank you to everyone who read and supported these works. thank you to those who showered it with love and welcomed it warmly as an extension of the stories we loved and read. i was truly, deeply happy and grateful of how y'all received them.
          
          see you again within the next pages of the stories we'll love along the way, within the spaces of writers we support, or maybe, this time, within the books i can now call my own. krazy. medyo ambisyosa. ewan. either way, kitakits! 

GRACIELLA | one-shot
          
          Every year, when March 17 comes, Gracie re-enacts the day she and boyfriend broke up. It's her third year today doing that. 
          
          But what if along the way of going to places they went to, she meets him again? What then?
           #graciellawp 
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/368344834-graciella

gently like leaves 
          
          • an epistolary  
          • college romance
          • slice of life
          • "nothing lasts." "take a chance with me and see how some things do."
          • discovering friendships and belongingness
          
          status: ongoing | #gllclkb 
          
          read it here: https://www.wattpad.com/story/366660014-gently-like-leaves 

Just like how we were forged in the elements that were scattered from the fiery throes of stars, she was molded in the places she has been, people she was with, and experiences she went through. She is words, stories, rhymes, phrases, and prose all at the same time; these are the stardust she's made of.
          
          Status: Completed | #tssmoclkb
          
          Read here: https://www.wattpad.com/story/361704259-the-stardust-she%27s-made-of-you-are-celestial-2

this is how the tears evolve,
          the way i bleed, and the pain dissolves 
          a collection of poetry and prose:
          this is moonlit wounds and words 
          
          status: completed | #mwawclkb 
          
          read here: https://www.wattpad.com/1417097577-moonlit-wounds-and-words-you-are-celestial-1 

Some letters are sent ablaze, some are whispered to the wind, and some are sent out there for people to admire, sing, twirl into, or read with a hope it'll reach the heart it is for.
          
          status: completed | #ltrinwp ✍
          
          Read it here: https://www.wattpad.com/story/324611140-letters-to-rael

cellakbo was born from the urge to entertain the fire that's surprisingly still alive. she was birthed from the urge to start again and promise that this time, she'll do it: properly, tirelessly, fearfully, and wholeheartedly. 
          
          to april avery, mgncara, halfbakedwriter, and arrowheads, thank you. for creating such wonderful worlds and characters that made me pick up my pen again just to bond with them a little longer. 
          
          to my ever supportive friends who find beauty in the words i string together, thank you. you fuel the fire in me so much that drawing words from the blood that poured in my midnight battles sting no more. one day, the stories won't be mine anymore. i hope you'll stick with me until then.
          
          to you who's here, has been, or will be, thank you. for taking any interest at all in this little bedroom i managed to build with pieces of me tucked here and there. may you find comfort in them or fascination, and not a bitter aftertaste of alcohol drowned down the throat.
          
          two years, i never thought it has already been that long. but i'll be here even longer so i guess, see you around?
          
          to more words and phrases, and poems and prose, and stories of friends we have yet to meet, cheers. 
          
          happy 2nd wattpad anniversary, cellakbo! 

everybody say: happy 2nd wattpad anniversary, cellakbo!!!