Omg, I hate myself so much, because I got so jealous and possessive over a best friend talking to her other best friend, that I didn't answer their messages or calls, i really feel like breaking something, and I want to cry, but I cant. This just happens with all of my friends and I don't know why! I think it's because I've gone so many years without a best friend who actually listens, I'm afraid of losing them. But I don't know for sure. And i dont want to tell her so I'm posting it here.