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its been awhile since i posted random shit about life. well i guess life's okay for awhile. until last night, god idk know how to say
          
          last night had opened up my eyes that no matter how far ive come. my darkest past will still ghosted my life. 
          
          starting with my friend asking for my photo. and god knows how insecure i am that time
           
          my heartbeat increasing, my breathing shorten, im feeling like im not good enough.
          
          idk what to do. its been awhile. and i- i just dont know what to do. 
          
          i dont want to go back to my past life. where self-harming is my first choice

getting my big examination result in exactly 8 hours and 30 minutes. passing the past few days without scaring about anything, scares the shit out of me. its like im too confident on my result and im just let whatever going to happen, happened. and i dont like it, i mean who would? because wed know on the first hand what it feels like being let down by expectation.
          
          but thankfully this last minutes jitters had arrived and here am i still fully awake on 1 am :')

becoming a youngest children on the family really have its own pros and cons. like the pros is you are the one who been poured with too many love, the one who can be spoiled by all yours siblings and etc. but what i hate most about being the youngest children is, my journey are too far ahead from me and i havent done anything that have made my parents happy and i wish i could done all the things that i could without worrying about how my parents are getting old and im afraid if i never got the chance to make them proud of me.
          
          i know this 2 am thoughts wont get me anywhere, but i just need something to poured myself out, so here i am posting on my timeline on exactly 2:02 am. im sorry if my grammars are not right.
          
          hopefully and wishing everybody to get the chances to make everyone proud. and may you and your loved ones become healthy and healthier. <3

fresh start with nothing of you in it :)

with or without you, my life's pretty much still going on. so, i guess now this is it, the goodbye that my mind have been aching to say, but my soul seems to cannot comprehend with any of it. 

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after ive seen the way loves change my friends, i, myself afraid what changes will it brings me to do

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