chainsm0ked

i’ve come to realize that i’m in the midst of another bpd episode, and the mania i’m experiencing seems to be triggered by being here. i’m so hung up on the past. i’m falling into bad habits, i’m depressed, and i’m incredibly anxious. i appreciate the friendships i’ve made since i’ve returned, but for now it’s best for me to leave. my mental health is suffering too much, and i fear i’m risking a full psychotic break if i stay. feel free to add me on discord if you want. i won’t be around there much either, but i’ll probably check in from time to time.
          	
          	goodbye, friends. <3

twentyfine

wishing you the best. 
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tr4um4t1c_4ngel

@chainsm0ked It’s hard to admit when you’re not okay, I’m proud of you for being able to. I am wishing you nothing less than the best and will be here if you ever need anything. I don’t have discord but I do have pin <3
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chainsm0ked

i’ve come to realize that i’m in the midst of another bpd episode, and the mania i’m experiencing seems to be triggered by being here. i’m so hung up on the past. i’m falling into bad habits, i’m depressed, and i’m incredibly anxious. i appreciate the friendships i’ve made since i’ve returned, but for now it’s best for me to leave. my mental health is suffering too much, and i fear i’m risking a full psychotic break if i stay. feel free to add me on discord if you want. i won’t be around there much either, but i’ll probably check in from time to time.
          
          goodbye, friends. <3

twentyfine

wishing you the best. 
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tr4um4t1c_4ngel

@chainsm0ked It’s hard to admit when you’re not okay, I’m proud of you for being able to. I am wishing you nothing less than the best and will be here if you ever need anything. I don’t have discord but I do have pin <3
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tr4um4t1c_4ngel

How are you feeling lovely?

tr4um4t1c_4ngel

Hope you’re doing well 
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tr4um4t1c_4ngel

Cleaning, it’s been a while since I’ve deep cleaned my place so 
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chainsm0ked

picking up mr. ninja’s ashes later today. i’m gonna cry like a baby but i’m excited to bring my baby back home. <3

7eaoz7

Hey

7eaoz7

Good morning, Zayda. Did you do anything for the 4th?
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7eaoz7

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Sorry, you didn’t ask for my soapbox, but so many people say what you said, and it’s understandable, but mankind would’ve never made it out the Horn of Africa hundreds of thousands of years ago if we looked to shitty shit in the world as a source of determination 
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7eaoz7

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I don’t disagree with you. Before I say what I need to say, I want to add that “having a kid” could either be biologically or adoption for my purposes. I do think it’s a little short-sighted to use current events as a reason to avoid having children. The world has always sucked to some extent. Every generation, routinely, has something going on in the world where one could easily make the argument that we shouldn’t have kids. Our parents could’ve blamed the economy for not having us, shit, everyone knew the market was going to crash in 2008 but here we were steadily being born years with that knowledge being known. Most of us turned out okay. I think what you originally said makes most sense though-I’m selfish too. I want two incomes and no kids, simple as that lmao
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turnstile

How you feeling?

chainsm0ked

@turnstile the death of a pet hurts so bad because animals are so sweet and innocent. and when it’s a childhood pet like that, it cuts even deeper. i knew ninja’s time was coming because he was sleeping a lot more and his legs seemed wobbly in recent months. but it helps me cope knowing that he doesn’t have to be in pain anymore. i’m so grateful he can be at peace.
            
            immortal cats would be so dope, but they would surely take over the entire world. and maybe that’s for the better because humans kinda suck. 
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turnstile

@chainsm0ked honestly immortal cats would create world peace ngl. 
            I’m here if you wanna talk :) 
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turnstile

@chainsm0ked ninja! Rip <3
            First pets always hurt. Tipsy was my first. I grew up with him all my years. It’s hard but it got easier for me. I’m able to live on while still thinking of him. It’s less painful now. 
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chainsm0ked

i don’t think i’ve ever cried this much in my whole entire life. i’m starting to sound like squidward.

chainsm0ked

@turnstile it’s truly so awful. but thankfully i think i’ve gotten most of my tears out.
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turnstile

Let it out 
            Losing a cat is the hardest thing 
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