chaoticalex

hi bestie i know its been a LONG time but that’s just what i’m worried abt,, i’ve just come to check up on you and how you’re doing, i hope that wherever u are ur doing well <33 i miss uu

You’re bio is one of the most relatable things I’ve ever read but Kai simp or nah and don’t lie cuz ik u reading consumed so

there was a lot of toxicity in my life, i think. and i think the idea of basing characters off of real people was a bad one — because i was constantly torn between, would they act this way now, or is this old them? and mixed feelings with me and said people would get in between the characters and honestly they (said characters) didn't deserve that. so to speak, i thought i'd change something.
          the characters are no longer based off of people, but are people on their own. the way they act is strictly based on them (and the million personality quizes i took as them, with me in their shoes), and writing became so much easier? it no longer felt so personal, in a way that hurted me, but in a way that was close to my heart. 
          don't you worry, alex, chase, kyle, angie, louis, zack and rhea aren't going anywhere. they've simply been modified. into their own versions of themself.
          even i, as a person, have become better. i feel a lot lighter and happier now than i did before. i no longer feel anxious of talking to people i ditched because i hate getting close to people (thanks mom) and yeah 
          i'm here now. 
          sadly i will have to archive the old contrarium, replacing it with the newer version. i will be here, notifications on, and will update you on progress and when i plan to post the new version  (which will be soon hopefully)
          kisses to all <3
          

IN MY DEFENSE,
          i finished high school *smiles weakly* 
          i'm sorry i feel so bad ugh — everyday i'd think about being active, then i'd forget. 
          but today, is a different day. because i managed to sum up all the nonexistent bravado in me to come here. 
          because well, i have this tendency to run away from things i commit to (thanks dad) but unlike my sperm donor, i am back and hopefully for longer this time. 
          
          

erica albright's a bitch. do you think that's because her family changed their name from albrecht, or do you think it's because all BU girls are bitches?
          

i’m in love with ur bio

alex its been so long

hey bestie!! just checking in if ur still alive <3 we miss uu

Ily

who tf gave my school the audacity to have a goddamn chemistry exam on 23rd april while i'm having a brainrot on the three words my queen inej spoke in the released clip of the crows