Moon Charu

i wish i could erase all my memories god.Don't wanna remember any of these.It hurts me more than healing.

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          Don't know what to write
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          what my heart even feels in this moment,i don't know
          i can't even figure out my own feelings

In which point it got all wrong God?
          Was my intention bad?
          Were I really supposed to be like this always?
          Why God?

Now at this moment,regret is hitting so hard,so the reality is.
          The stubborn me will ruin me one day.I can't even undo these.
          Yeah,it should be ,as you sow so you reap.
          NOW i have to survive this.

wanna throw up 
          everything i ate ,i gulped, that got down to my core
          all wants to come out

i love you panda
          moo

Hiii

i really went back to the post admission phase.Nobody with me.Nobody who can actually understands me.
          All alone
          all over again.

do you still watch any shows? like kdrama or anime? i loveeee anime ♡☆ im currently watching the summer hikaru died and to be hero X. first one is a horror anime- and its like my lifeline! and to be hero X is actually a chinese donghua... but its such a banger. it focuses upon the stories of Heroes in a system where people's beliefs are literally amounted and this 'Trust' is the source of their powers... not gonna lie the twists are so good tho. i expect nothing less from the director of link click... oh, did i ever tell you about Link Click? its a time travel/sci-fi/suspense/thriller donghua... the first chinese donghua i ever watched and BOOM it grew on my like cherry tree T_T

what did you eat last night? i didnt eat anything. for some days! because im always eating junk food all the time  . singara, puri, roll, somucha, kochuri.... what not... im gotten fat yk? and my attention span has turned into 0. cant do anything except scrolling. ughhhhh. im in such a block.