Charu

I can't stop thinking about you. Idk about you.
          but I can't .every moments hurt.
          I can't stop thinking about you even for a single moment.
          I just can't.

we haven't talked a normal talk for a decade.
          we haven't asked each other what we need
          we haven't asked each other "is it hard for you?"
          we haven't talk the silliest thing
          we haven't gossip about the little things 
          i haven't get a normal talk with you for a long time
          it hurts now

how much time do I need to heal now?
          undoubtedly time heals but how much

We are the villain of our own story

lets sleep mm?
          time passes quickly when we sleep.

sighh

i feel numb now?

idk.maybe my 'hate everyone' phase started.
          i literally hate every one. every each of them.

So lost. taking deep sigh.
          no one to share .no one to yap with.
          this night is so long for me. idk maybe tomorrow will be the same.
          so many long nights.so much to hide.so much to endure.
          should I smile or should I cry?
          throat getting dry, vision getting unclear
          sigh........

why i cant i write anymore?
          why it feels heavy?
          why i cant feel the actual things 
          why my eyes always gets teary at a little inconvenience?
          why does it feel like sinking anyway?
          why am i like this?
          why can't i be a lil more strong to show that i'm ok with it?
          why his words hurt afterall?
          why the memories of our argument haunt me?
          why i feel like ...sigh
          idk how many why i still have in my heart.
          idk how much i can carry on my shoulder with this heavy heart.
          sigh