Better! Thank you so much for ur advice it helped me so so so much, ive focused on myself more and im still waiting for the right time to bring it up but most of those people r on vacation and i dont want to spoil it for them they deserve to have a good time! Honestly thank u for checking up on me! But things r getting better gradually and i hope everything is going good for u lmk if u have any problems u feel comfortable sharing! Its weird how people you dont know can help u through so much! <3333 Stay safe!