it is just me or i am the only one who has no clue what i want to do with my life. the things i wish i could do i know im not smart enough for and i honestly dont even think ill be alive long enough to even have to deal with figuring out what i want to do. life is so hard and its like i wanna keep going but every once in a while i realize im really not good at all. im just really distracted and sometimes when i get really sad i scare myself because i 100% feel like im going to hurt myself and i dont want to. i want to have hope that things will come together but i know they wont. so im just living, and patiently waiting for something to change because i dont want anybody to be sad if i leave. i wish the people to know that im trying to stay strong and that im living for them, but i dont want to make them feel pressured or feel like their actions need to make me happy haha
