cheriexcherry

Oh- wow- 
          	Its December 2022 and I haven't said anything or written in this for years-

cheriexcherry

hey everyone, 
          
          I decided to multi-fandom this account so you might expect different musicals/ movies/ etc fanfiction.
          
          I'm sorry for all those Hamilton fans who just wanted Hamilton content. Of course, I will still continue my Hamilton books because those are my babies and I love them with all my heart.
          
          But bare with me here!!
          
          Here's my confession/ reflection:
          I look back on my life for the past 4 years I've known Hamilton and realised I was trying so hard to live up to the expectations of Alexander Hamilton and trying my hardest to be like him, when in reality...I'm not as committed to hardwork and rising to the top as he is nor is my life the same as his. I only found similarities within our personalities. I managed to convince myself that I HAVE to be like Hamilton and that I HAVE to be lawyer like him, and HAVE to have the confidence like him. I realised that I didn't like the spotlight and that I shouldnt have forced myself just because Hamilton was born for the spotlight.
          
          But now I've realised that I don't know who I am.
          I've been so caught up in trying to be someone I'm not that I don't even know what my hobbies are. I realise how ridiculous and childish it was of me to think I could be someone like Hamilton...frankly, it's embarrassing. I was convinced I was this confident, scrappy girl who had ambitions when in reality, I had no traits of these whatsoever.
          
          I'm 16 years old now and I'm moving back to Australia. I needed a reality check that this is the age where I am going to find myself and find the things i love and find the friends I'm going to cherish. (I would like to thank Boy Meets World for the reality check)
          
          I needed to accept the fact that I'm growing up and I can't pretend anymore.

cheriexcherry

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@_alex_face_ So now I'm going to finally take my life and schooling seriously, and make life changing goals. I'm going to start simple by not eating unhealthy foods and exercise. 
            Another simple habit I could do is sleeping at 10-11pm and waking up at 9am.
            Next on my list is me actually studying and doing relevant courses for my new school.
            I don't want to date anyone until I'm 18. My brain has been so caught up with relationships that I haven't been taking school seriously. 
            I want to have this goal. I know for a fact I might procrastinate tomorrow but I'm going to try my very hardest not to procrastinate.
            I'm going to love myself unconditionally and won't give a shit about mean assholes' opinions. (Maybe I should try not to swear so much too??)
            Ooh I should try to meditate or practice mindfulness...that sounds nice...
            
            Okay anyways, I know no ones going to read this so this is mostly for me..
            Thank you if you've read this so far. You're a great listener <3
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cheriexcherry

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guys my obsession with Hamilton is disappearing at a great speed because I have a new obsession...Sally Face...its literally eating me alive. I even made a fucking instagram and Wattpad page for the character Sally Face. (I relate to sal out of all of them :))
          
          You guys probably don't know what Sally face is though... I don't know...
          
          I'm afraid that I might not continue writing my Hamilton books after like 4 years of being in the fandom...gosh. I haven't stopped being obsessed with Hamilton until now....WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME?!?!?!

cheriexcherry

SO. I'm listening to Til I Hear You Sing from Love Never Dies (Sequel of Phantom Of The Opera AND I FULLY RECOMMEND LISTENING TO IT T-T) and I was on the verge of crying. But then I thought about Hamilton. And then I thought about Hamilton singing this when he found out Lauren's died. And then I full on cried and died inside :> (my mind automatically tries to connect any song or show or movie with Hamilton to make it's own AU...its sad)

cheriexcherry

hey guys! im not dead lol. but can I tell y'all something?
          i've recently came out as bisexual...(only to my sisters and my friends..and now you guys). i hope y'all accept me  <3

cheriexcherry

@EggoWithLEGOs Thank you !!! <3
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keyedwing

Dunno why people wouldn’t. You’re awesome!
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