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how many times do i say this?
          i've said it a hundred times
          and i've thought about it a million
          i miss you more than i remember you
          i remember you so vividly
          i remember nothing at all and i've made you up
          i've changed everything about you
          in my memory you are perfect
          even your mistakes are perfectly aligned to be fixed in a beautiful character arc like we are characters in a story
          
          i miss you more than i remember you
          but is it right to look back?

i miss everyone here. i miss them.
          at the end of the day, i feel like the pathetic loser who remembers, while everyone else moves on.
          
          why couldn't we all be in a garden? playing and laughing forever.
          why couldn't we all be friends till our end?
          why do i have to restart each time?
          make a new friend
          leave them behind
          make a new friend
          get left behind
          why
          do the relationships we make 
          get thrown away so easily
          
          i miss waking up everyday
          excited to talk to a bunch of ppl online
          i miss it so much
          why did such a cruel world
          let live such sensitive hearts

when the voices in your mind get violent, how do you breathe?

what a silly heart this is

i miss you more than i remember you

https://www.pinterest.com/pin/352477108350869693/
          you aren't a problem that needs to be solved
          (OMG T_T)

you love someone you made up, 
          and that is your tragedy
          you cannot love the one who stands in your mirror
          and above your shadows,
          and that is your tragedy

hey there, kid. get up. get up get up get up get up
          get up
          getup
          get
          up
          give

when life feels tiring i hope some light flickers in your life, randomly or unexpectedly, to give you the strength to move ahead

Remember moi? >=<