hiatus interim due to cardiarexxhis
apologies for 
mentality thalidomide
disfigured passion impassionate
intent wisdom saturate
outcome wisdom foolish


in paraphrase:
why ask for forgiveness when I still hold the rewards of my sin
to do so is heresy

thus,
i do not ask for forgiveness

i ask that you only remember me

if not by my beliefs,

but then by my transgressions

see you on the other side

but i am no marytr