@chibicandimei Hey, I just saw your update. It's quite sad to hear about the problems you are experiencing now, believe me I've been in your situation too.
I just want to say, don't give up. Life is bad. The older we get, the more we understand that life is that hard. But never give up(个_个)
If you believe in God, believe that he will lead you to something you never imagined. So don't give up, keep trying, think positive and keep your spirits up.
Wherever you are♡♡