I'm a nugget

I have a new update of like 4000+ words for MY Little Princess, do I upload straight away and don't care about the fact it's been 4 years since the last one or do I just forget about it lol

Three weeks ago I was in hospital due to a suicide attempt, three minutes ago my mom said straight to my face that she was better off topping herself.
          Doesn't she get that that is literally one of the worst things to say to me right now, I swear since my release from hospital that's all she's gone on about is basically telling me she is better off killing herself over the stupidest things like I lost my inhaler the other day and she said "it's not like I needed it anyway, I'll just go away and die then".
          
          she literally helps to put me at my worst.
          what the hell am I going to do :(((

anyone like Game of Thrones?? 
          I've been up since 3:45am bingeing the first season, now onto season two:)))

Just wrote a 3501 word update for My Little Princess and still not finished, this one is a long one but you have been waiting four years for it sooooo...
          
          I wanna thank you all for sticking by me and continuing to read my story throughout these years i've been MIA so thank you, also want to thank you for getting My Little Princess up to #44 on the story rankings for Alren stories on Wattpad, so thank you <3
          
          so keep your eyes open the next few days for a monster update:)
          also it's 8:10am so ima go to sleep, gnight x

Planning my outfits for the day : gaygaygaygaygaygaygaygaygay 

and at 7am and countless passing hours of listening to her quiet breathing (and smol snores), I get ready to go to sleep(:

You gave up on us so watch me give up on you.

Can you please update little Lauren 

...without you...
          ...I'll give up anyway...

I don't feel like myself..
          I haven't for a long time.
          
          I'm going to drastically change my appearance this weekend and next...let's see how this will work out...