In years past, I'm positive that I don't have much improvement. It probably worsen, I guess. Been thinking about people whom I met and hoping to be a friend leave easily and for that I just realize that I should stop and hope to be their friend. Everything is a blur, I don't have a career and now I'm scared more than ever... even my confidence I thought improve this past few months plunge rapidly. For all I know, I'm lucky talking to cats, the walls and any inanimate object I could find. Whenever I need someone, I just talk to the walls... convenient right? Or I just write lyrics even though it won't be heard. I guess people are right I'm weird and a freak and I guess they're right leaving me alone. Its just I've give up already, its been many years and still no one would bother listen... a loser... always been a loser...