@chimmybts0113 I have been through this girl. Honestly, no need to keep homophobic friends who are with you with certain rules.
You may feel disgusted with yourself right now or maybe want to get your friends back but there is no need for those friends who can't bear with you with who you are.
And they are distancing just for the mere reason of sexuality. Sorry to say but they can be anything but not friends.
You don't have to feel down about yourself and there will be many people who will come and go in your life.
All my close friends forgot me after my 10th board and never tried to reach me, and they went to enjoy themselves after the board without even inviting me, when I tried to call them many times I was either ignored or treated as just a stranger maybe because I don't go for outings much.
It has been two years since I didn't make friends with anyone and learnt to be alone because most people think that I'm arrogant.
I told you a little part of my story just to let you know that it happens and you should feel happy that you can see the toxicity of your friends and remove them from your life.
And don't ever think about the gossip they would make because "when people stop talking to you then they start talking about you".
It's very normal to feel low but trust me, just for one, everything happens for a reason.
You are a really strong and very talented girl.
Believe and be strong.
Just keep moving on and remove shits from your life.
Love lovee