andi

I have so many things in my drafts
          It's gonna hurt to try and edit all of it to match my current brain cells xd

damn, my random venting sessions really be that long xd

I have been very busy
          I still am
          But i missed being on this app so i came to see what's new.
          
          ...
          I miss someone here, someone who used to write my kind of stories. A rare someone.
          I just saw they deactivated 
          Which means
          I can't re-read my favorite story and i can't reach them :(
          It sucks and i am worried about them and hope they're well and breathing and loved and rn I'm just venting i guess 
          
          I slightly regret not being able to keep a nice, online friendship because i think we might have still be in touch. But I'm too anxious and antisocial for those things and now I've lost the only way i could have ever interact with them. *deep sigh*
          
          Hm, anyway..
          Hope y'all are safe and cared for ♡

thank you for the follow!! <33

found something in my drafts :')
          from December:
          
          "Looking through the window he couldn't tell much, barely the silhouettes of some anonymous human beings, running. 
          
          Puddles
          Thunders
          Noise
          But over all, a pretty mellow, calm evening.
          
          The candles are dancing beautifully on a night stand near a table. Red velvet like.
          
          A lonely room with nice taste and a nice boy sitting like decorations on some black, victorian-themed furniture, smoking something we'll never know like his life depended on it. 
          It might be true."

hope you're doing well xx

I'm thinking about starting to write again but it feels so weird it's like starting all over again xd

guyyys hii
          i miss you !!

so empty here
          yet it feels like visiting an old friend
          
          i wanna say hi to everyone who randomly sees this, i miss you :'( 
          
          yes, i am safe and okay
          thanks for every dm ily
          
          i am here but my words arent
          my depressive thoughts used to inspire me but now they're not as many
          
          now it's mostly
          quiet
          empty
          blank
          unfocused, so unfocused 
          
          with time, maybe i'll be writing again
          not today, maybe not tomorrow.
          but here
          xx
          
          

hi! how are you?