Sexy plaything
With twinkling earrings
And alcohol in the dark.
Love is light years away
And one day she’ll die with regrets.
My love
One day I’ll forget your name.
The love you demanded but didn’t give back.
The hatred that you sowed.
There are traitors among us
Aiding the establishment
Keeping their mouths shut.
Silence is compliance.
They imprison us inside these concrete walls.
I feel so disconnected with life.
I feel so disconnected with love.
They want to rip us off our will,
Our lives off meaning.
I did not know who my enemies are.
I do now.
Give them comfort
The illusion of safety
Security
And stability
So that they won’t revolt against you.
People need faith.
They’ll latch on to anything.
A false god
Righteousness
The illusion of Eden.
No one wants to believe
We’re living in vain
Serving madmen and overlords.
A heretic belief gets one lost.
Let me be a commoner again.
Let me dream the familiar dreams.
The pretty girl gets to be pretty
But the sex creature is exiled to the desert.
There is not a single thing that can entertain me in this city.
Not a single man.
The caged birds.
The industrial machines.
The digital dreams.
There is no greener grass on the other side of the fence.
Only my hilltop.
My meadow.
I’m fed up with this city
And its concrete walls.
This false man-made Eden.
There’s no God.
There’s no country.
I’ve died a thousand deaths
And today it is just another one.
Has the world lost its grandeur?
Have I lost my mind?
Tell me what is wrong with me, love.
I barely talked to you when I was there.
Not enough words to fill half a page.
But I talk to you every night in my mind now
Wondering where did it all go wrong?
What are you?
What am I?
I’m a ghost.
You’re a stranger.
Now I can’t muster up the courage.
Can’t muster up the poem.
The faith is false.
Demanding.
Vicious.
The selfish little girl was right all along.
I tried to love.
I tried to believe.
I tried to live.
In the face of faithlessness.
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