chloragreen

how many ways did you try to make me hate myself.
          don’t you get why i can’t stand seeing your face. 
          Why i’d rather pass you in the hallway.
          And we used to dance in my heart,
          now all i do is cry on the floor.
          
          and i stayed in front of the tv,
          like i could rewatch us dancing,
          blurred view, i’ve already seen this movie.
          ´cause you used to turn it off
          while screaming how stupid I was 
          to think i had any rights on my own.

finally 18<3

ce soir, j’ai écris cette chanson en quelques minutes, alors je souhaitais vous la partager : 
          
          « knotted throat »
          
          See my whole blood on your road,
          i put there to build your whole world.
          i think you forgot, ´cause i’m
          there just waiting for one heart to help me, i’m so drown. in this ocean full of my losts.
          
          be sure we wont ever go back, in that damn island.
          This was once my fav place, i once got the regret, but life softer without this fake sun above this roof. 
          be sure i wont ever go back, please dont wait there, please dont wait for me.
          
          I shouldve known, love is not about waiting.
          Waiting for a man to change, or to call when it was supposed to end.
          I shouldve known, but i guess i wasnt this old i thought.
          Heard you tried your best,
          Heard you loved me in a way,
          Also heard all of your lies, you told to my eyes. 
          
          be sure we wont ever go back, in that damn island.
          This was once my fav place, i once got the regret, but life softer without this fake sun above this roof. 
          be sure i wont ever go back, please dont wait there, please dont wait for me.
          
          See my whole blood on your road,
          i put there to build your whole world.
          I passed my whole life to help every soul,
          thought someone would care about my road.
          See my whole blood on your road,
          i put there to build your whole world.
          i think you forgot, ´cause i’m
          there just waiting for one heart to help me, i’m so drown. in this ocean full of my losts.
          
          be sure we wont ever go back, in that damn island.
          This was once my fav place, i once got the regret, but life softer without this fake sun above this roof. 
          be sure i wont ever go back, please dont wait there, please dont wait for me then.
          
          I said with my knotted throat.

i hope someone will one day care about my tears, and make me feel like we’re in a movie.

and i would die, to keep this moment alive.
          dont you see in my eyes, all those fking treaths in my life ?
          would that be once my time ? to find the one.
          now you laid your eyes on mine.
          i would die to keep this moment alive,
          i mean i will wait for you to give signs.

how to know whats the right choice ? how to know if there’s even a right one ? 

Chapitre 1 disponible, bonne lecture <3

manifesting is getting what you used to dream for years 

trop à fond dans l’écriture de mon roman ;)