ClumsyToshiky

Felt sad today and decided to write a book about my life growing up to now

Can someone tell me a website you can sell custom things you made yourself for money please I really need the help so I can do something really special for my mom since she`s been really stressed the last few days and I don`t really know how to help her but I try my best to make her feel better

https://discord.gg/E9kn868snS Discord?

I finally posted the first chapter of Betrayed Crow but I think its really short and I`m sorry if its terrible to you I will try my best to make the next chapter longer and more interesting to you

Why don`t I sleep at night mental stability go BRR I literally just can`t sleep at night I will stay awake the whole entire night until its morning cause sleep left the gc so now I`m stuck with depression and anxiety

So heyy yall um so it`s basically 3:22 am where I am now and I can`t sleep I mean like I want to but I can`t cause I have some mental problems that I think should be dealt with immediately but I don`t ask for help cause I think I will just be a burden on people but the bright side of it is I`m still sane at some point if I`m not in the dark by myself or I`m upset but if that does happen I go completely insane It`s like my mind doesn`t know what to think I just have a lot of thoughts that just can`t seem to go away even if I try like for example I can`t stop thinking about the fact my mom doesn`t want to accept I don`t just like boys it just makes me so damn angry every time she does something that upsets me everyone in MY HOUSE IS FUCKING HYPOCRITES THEY TALK ABOUT LGBTQ+ INFRONT OF ME BAD MOUTHING PEOPLE WHO ARE I JUST HATE IT THE WORST THNG ABOUT IT IS MY COUSIN KNOWS IM PANSEXUAL AND THAT SUPPORT ANY PERSON APART OF LGBTQ+ AND SHE WILL LITERALLY BE HANGING OUT IN MY ROOM WHENEVER MY FAMILY DECIDES TO HAVE A BIRTHDAY PARTY AND MORE OF MY COUSINS WILL COME IN THEY WILL BAD MOUTH LESBIANS WHEN I`M USING MY EARPHONES TO LISTEN TO MUSIC WHEN I`M ACTUALLY NOT I WANTED TO CRY BECAUSE IT REALLY HURT ME ALOT I JUST FUCKING HATE EVERYONE IN MY HOUSE I CAN`T TAKE THE PRESSURE ANYMORE THEY ALWAYS BLAME HINGS ON ME WHEN I DIDN`T DO ANYTHING THEY YELL AT ME FOR ASKING A SIMPLE YES OR NO QUESTION THEY DON`T CARE WHEN I TELL THEY I`M HUNGRY EVEN IF THEY KNOW I HAVEN`T EATEN ANYTHING SINCE MORNING IT`S JUST SOOOO FUCKING HARD LIVING IN THE GOD DAMMMNN HELLHOUSEE I CALL MY FUCKINGG HOME IT LIKE LIVING IN FUCKING DEPRESSION MOVIE I HATE IT 
          Sorry sorry I love you guys and I hope you are all doing well and staying safe 
          anyways bye I`m gonna go calm down before I start crying and screaming till I pass out from exhaustion 
          Toshi out ...

So the book you was doing are you gonna finish 

AY do you guys remember the when I said I would go back home at 7 in the morning since I was at my aunts house FORGET ABOUT THAT IT IS 4:39 AM RIGHT NOW AND I AM A BACK HOME THESE MF WOKE ME UP AT 4 IN THE FRICKING MORNING I WAS FINALLY FALLING ASLEEP THAT TIME AFTER TOSSING AND TURNING IN MY BED TO FEEL COMFORTABLE ALL NIGHT IM HUNGRY RIGHT NOW THE CAR WAS DRIVING SO DAMN FAST I THINK IT REARRANGED MY INSIDES I JUST WANNA SLEEP AND EAT ICE CREAM 
          
          SOMEONE TELL ME WHY THE WORLD LIKES TO SEE ME SUFFER JUST LIKE ONE TIME WHEN I WAS AT SCHOOL WE WERE PLAYING A GAME AND I COULDN`T RUN FAST ENOUGH SO I JUST SAID FUCK IT AND THEN I JUMPED AND FACE PLANTED IN THE DIRT WHEN I GOT I STARTED LAUGHUNG AT MYSELF THEN MY BFF STARTED LAUGHING I LOOKED LIKE A TOTAL DUMBASS