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I am so done with the politics in America. Obviously, there are things going on in other places, but I am not nearly as aware of them, since they aren't a daily experience for me. At this point, I just don't want to know what's going on because it's so upsetting, but then I do, because it'll affect me later.

I was thinking, I'm in my first *healthy* romantic relationship, and then I started analyzing all the things that are different. Thinking back, it's so obvious what was wrong, but it wasn't even remotely visible to me at that time. 
          
          I was having a rough day yesterday, and I laid my head on my girlfriends legs, and she asked "what do you need? an ear, a shoulder, or a guide?" and I almost started crying because of how different that is, and how much I needed it. 
          
          so basically, I had a minor revelation about how things are supposed to be