@ciel_mikhellyes
i don't like doing things if i can't drown myself in it completely. i want to be with you, but decisions other people can make scare me. i long for the days we don't have to worry about what people say or think. i miss you entirely. i love you with everything that i am.
Please don't disappear love. a reason why i dont beg for you to stay is because i dont want to keep hurting you with my indecisiveness. I Love you so much. i do. i do. i do. you are so very important to me and i will never give up on us. i know it looks like i have but im still hoping and wishing and dreaming wanting the life we planned together. i love you. please stay. we'll both be messes, but let's be a beautiful mess together.
