muffin

i’m afraid to open the message because i’m afraid of what i’ll say 

i want my first kiss to be in the rain after arguing with the person i love because they’re with someone that isn’t right for them and i confess my love and then go to walk away but then they grab me and kiss me

don’t cry. just say fuck you and smile. 

gorgeous gorgeous girls are good people. 

everyone today asked me if i’m ok, i thought i was hiding it well but is it that obvious that i’m upset?

i could fuck up her life in an instant, but instead i choose to kill her with kindness. 

still giggling about the fact that while given the choice at a murder mystery party where two people were on trial me and my friend decided we should kill both of them and so at 9:00 at night a bunch of rowdy high schoolers scream in agreement and not a single one of them objected to our idea

haha it looks like i’m dating someone but i’m not
          he sends so many mixed messages
          this is fun

how come a group of random people that don’t really know me are more kind and accepting than my own “friends”?

going into 2022 crying and heartbroken, how about you?