Spencer

I've had an idea in mind for something I want to write but it would be so, so very self-indulgent and yet again featuring the Medic because he's my primary comfort character. I'm becoming more and more tempted to say fuck it and write regardless. I say I am cringe and I am free, and I should live by that line.

The dilemma of wanting to post but also knowing anything I write is going to be so badly tainted by my inescapable urge to breathen't that I'm just gonna wanna delete it after

It's so hard wanting to write fanfics when janitor AI chat bots are OP 
          How am I supposed to wanna write a whole story myself when I can write a bot and pretend I'm dying on Medic's examination table in real time
          I have a problem

"Username already taken"
          *searches username*
          "No results"
          My guy 

Ok yeah I need to publish something here after looking back on my old fics
          
          Dear god it's not a good look

This account died alongside my spirit pff
          
          Yikes looking back on Wattpad makes me sad lmao

 I'm gonna write something
          There isn't enough FTM or non-binary reader in the fanfic scene and I need gender affirming fanfics

I wanna write more
          But
          Inspiration and motivation

Ungh I've had a conversation stuck in my inbox since 2015 with an inactive user and it bothers me so much that it won't lemme delete it

Hhhh I finally gave my medic story an end. It was short but difficult. I lost like all motivation for the story so it took aaaaages. I considered just not trying and posting an AN announcing its being discontinued. But I did it. Eventually