clcneedsalightstick

OK WE ARE CHILLING she apologised so much and i got love attacked and i got the secret satisfaction of having someone be worried that i was ignoring them eheheheheehheeheheh im sorry-

hoooo its only been 5 days since i completely ignored that friend's messages, i feel bad especially when i told her there were no hard feelings. while she absolutely deserves a punch to the face and a smack to the head, im not a confrontational person, its rare for me to genuinely be angry at someone. im not going to end our friendship of almost 12 years over a shit decision she made, but i do want her to make better choices and be better. idk how im going to talk to her, but i do know that in the future i will be cautious of other red flag behaviour, so she better take thie second chance to be a better friend. whether this is a good decision on my part will be for future me to handle. i hope she goes on her knees and vows to make it up to me for causing me SO MUCH DAMN STRESS THAT I COULDNT FOCUS ON SCHOOL FOR A WEEK ARHGGJGJKSKDK:)

this is not me coming back, this is me sharing that my best friend that i've known since i was 8 sucked off a guy that i was in love with until university and almost everyone in my highschool friend group knew, split over arguing over who brought it up in a conversation while simultaneously looking into my eyes pretending that everything was normal for two years while i struggled immensely trying to move on from this guy. and this best friend went 2 years listening to me tell her how much i loved him and cried over him. i was so calm at the time she told me this and said i loved her no matter what. but the more i think about the lies, the pretending, i dont know anymore. anyway miss you all<33333

ah jeez im 20 now. (i will be back to read some stuff im just busy)

chat do we think I'm autistic. People are telling me i am, i keep denying it, people continue to tell me i am

if any of y'all know the green yuri, its getting an anime adaptation and I'm so excited

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY IM FINALLY NOT DEPRESSED FROM NOT HAVING A PARTNER BUT I HAVE A HEADACHE

alnst fans....

update: girl got asked out by another friend, whatever, they're cute together, he's a good guy, he was asking me stuff about her, i support them. im also sick, i got some codeine and i feel like boiled chicken

ok
          i havent had a crush on a girl since i was 12. 
          this one friend who i met in uni
          she matches my freak, has the same interests as me, likes kpop, bl, sanrio. she puts the stickers i gave her in her journal, asked if i liked it when she posted it, got me a cinnamoroll keychain randomly, and puts a video of me before i accidentally dunk my shoe in ice water. i think i like her (i was literally questioning if i was actually gay instead of bi) hhhhhhhhhh