clcneedsalightstick

okay i spent the past few hours crying and bawling to my friend about mark leaving nct. im rlly emotional about it since i've been a fan (albeit very casual nowaways) of nct since 2018 and mark was my introduction to it. i normally hate going on kpop twt, but seeing so many czennies, old and new, popping up is kinda heartwarming ("mark if you come back i'll never call you a bottom again" was a favourite of mine). i hope everyone is doing okay, and even if i never wanted to see the term "6dream" again, i hope everyone agrees that mark made an incredible impact in his time with nct, and whatever he does, he will always have ppl cheering him on (even if he turns to gospel music(⁠•⁠ ⁠▽⁠ ⁠•⁠;⁠))
          
          and to my markhyuck/mahae lovers: its okay, i got emo over the old sm rookie pictures too

todays wordle took me an embarrassingly long time to get (im so sorry cake)

i've randomly gotten a million notifs saying someone liked a comment. my ass is a yapper holy shit??? like what am i saying, why am i talking about crabs, dulce papi..?????

random pet peeve: mfs who use a gc with 8 ppl to @ 2 ppl just to tell them smth they could've said in their own gc. mf there are other ppl here, why are we looking at our phones/pcs just to see you tagged 2 ppl to tell them about a food place they need to try ┗⁠(⁠•⁠ˇ⁠_⁠ˇ⁠•⁠)⁠―

OK WE ARE CHILLING she apologised so much and i got love attacked and i got the secret satisfaction of having someone be worried that i was ignoring them eheheheheehheeheheh im sorry-

hoooo its only been 5 days since i completely ignored that friend's messages, i feel bad especially when i told her there were no hard feelings. while she absolutely deserves a punch to the face and a smack to the head, im not a confrontational person, its rare for me to genuinely be angry at someone. im not going to end our friendship of almost 12 years over a shit decision she made, but i do want her to make better choices and be better. idk how im going to talk to her, but i do know that in the future i will be cautious of other red flag behaviour, so she better take thie second chance to be a better friend. whether this is a good decision on my part will be for future me to handle. i hope she goes on her knees and vows to make it up to me for causing me SO MUCH DAMN STRESS THAT I COULDNT FOCUS ON SCHOOL FOR A WEEK ARHGGJGJKSKDK:)

this is not me coming back, this is me sharing that my best friend that i've known since i was 8 sucked off a guy that i was in love with until university and almost everyone in my highschool friend group knew, split over arguing over who brought it up in a conversation while simultaneously looking into my eyes pretending that everything was normal for two years while i struggled immensely trying to move on from this guy. and this best friend went 2 years listening to me tell her how much i loved him and cried over him. i was so calm at the time she told me this and said i loved her no matter what. but the more i think about the lies, the pretending, i dont know anymore. anyway miss you all<33333

ah jeez im 20 now. (i will be back to read some stuff im just busy)

chat do we think I'm autistic. People are telling me i am, i keep denying it, people continue to tell me i am

if any of y'all know the green yuri, its getting an anime adaptation and I'm so excited