cloud_monster36

Hey... is anyone online?
          I've been really bored lately... does anybody wanna roleplay?
          I have a scenario, if you have one you wanna try we can...
          But I doubt anyone will be interested...

I wanna roleplay but everyone else already issssss
          
          So fucking boooorrrreeeedddd

Why do I even fucking try?! I have two accounts on this shit and no one fucking talks to me
          No one gives a fuck about me! Plenty a fucks to give about other people but as soon as they see me theres no more fucks left! No one talks to me.about my problems no one tries to cheer me up and if they do they normally go offline. SO WHY DO I KEEP TRYING?! all I want is people to talk to, more online friends that I can enjoy. But I guess I'm not worth it huh... I GUESS I'M NOT FUCKING WORTH IT!!! AND WATCH! NO ONES.GONNA FUCKING GLANCE AT THIS SHIT. NO ONE EVER DOES ANYWAYS!!!!$

I'm so fucking mad.
          I cant keep putting up with my parents shit.
          My older sister Emily bought me a red 3DSI XL last monday and was super excited to give it to me, she gave it to me on tuesday with a copy of super smash bros for the wii U/3 DS
          My step mom went through my room to find it. Because she was suspicious about me having a device (I'm not supposed to right now because I'm having problems in school) she finds my 3ds and confronts me and Emily about it, Emily gave me the 3ds with good intentions and was genuinely happy to have gotten it for me, now she has to return it, the copy of smash bros she got for it and the copy of metal gear solid: snake eater she got me. And It pisses me off so MUCH! Like come on! No ones gonna mention the fact that my privacy was invaded by my step mom? No ones gonna wonder how hurt Emily's gonna be because she gave me a fucking gift? Its bullshit! She bought me the device, shes and adult now, shouldnt it be her choice if I keep it or not? My dad and step mom shouldn't have control over gifts I was given because people give a shit about me, my dad and step mom should start respecting my fucking privacy and Emily's emotions, they think I'm untrustworthy? Fucking hypocrites. I dont forgive people easily... and they broke my near undying trust in them... so a big fuck you to Wayne smith and Lacey stairs
          Thanks for making me feel like a pile of fucking trash for the passed nine years

Human beings... strange things they are... they drive away the ones they love but act like everythings ok... letting the sadness and self hatred ferment inside them until its all consuming... its strange how they work... and yet I work the exact same way...
          I drove away one of the people I love...
          She barely speaks to me... and when she does its only briefly and stone cold... I dunno what to do anymore... I've never known what to do... she was always my guide... but I drove her away...
          
          Maybe I should listen to myself and give up... nothing I do means anything... it isn't important... I'm not important... I tried so hard to make them happy... to make them smile and be proud of me... even for a second... but I just ended up... driving them away...
          All the people I care about... all my loved ones... everyone I looked up to...
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          Gone...

Ever feel fabulous for a split second and then remember that you have no friends and nobody talks to you?
          Yeah... thats me right now...
          
          Bored... lonely...
          
          And in a weirdly kinky mood...

Just some Roleplay scenarios if anyones interested
          
          Your single and decide to try online dating, you see a guys profile that says "single dad, looking for someone to help care for my son and fill the strange gap in my life" you decide to contact the man and then...
          
          You were crossing the street one day when a drunk driver runs a red light at twice the speed limit, the car is suddenly stopped by a man you've only ever seen around town... he hadnt even touched the oncoming car to stop it, you...
          
          Your a scientist that studies things at the bottom of the ocean, mostly marine life but on the odd chance theres an object still intact from being left in the ocean you immediately start looking it over for anything and everything. The most recent thing brought to you was a casket, completely intact. The water hadn't even affected it...
          
          Your a vampire hunter currently searching for a vampire named Dio Brando, you've been looking for a few months but find no leads, until you see someone online talking about a strange encounter with someone matching Dio's exact description

Have you ever made a cup of tea, gotten a good book, wrapped yourself in blankets in your dimly lit room with some relaxing music with rain in the background...
          
          And then you realize how lonely you are?...
          
          No one talks to me anymore...
          I feel like I'm just annoying people at this point...
          
          Maybe...
          I should just go...
          
          
          No one needs me here anyway...

I'm having ramen and fried octopus for dinner
          Anyone care to join me?

So uh-
          I havent used this account in forever so I logged back in
          And... I kinda wanna roleplay...
          I'm semi-literate and I like to be as open minded as possible so if you have any ideas you could pitch a few to me
          
          I have some ideas of my own though and I'm in a weirldly angsty mood at the moment...
          
          Warning: if you wanna have smut in the roleplay just know, I'm a bottom, no exceptions.
          
          If you do wanna try some of my ideas you might wanna expect some of the following
          
          Nonconsent/mention thereof
          Abuse
          Self harm
          Drug abuse
          Overall just get ready for shit to get dark
          
          We can discuss things in dms if anyone's interested... even though I doubt anyone will be
          
          If anyone does however decide to give this a try, just know... I myself cant bring myself to hurt others, real or not real, so dont expect me to do much damage in most scenarios
          
          And yes.
          I know I'm a sick mother fucker.