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i’m so in love with him

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Just had the most heart wrenching dream during my nap… I know I haven’t completely moved on from him and never will although I’m a hundred over the fact that there’ll never be an “us”. He’s just so dear to me and will always have a place in my heart. At least in that dream we were the closest friends with not even a bit of awkwardness from me, cuz he was never awkward with me, it was me being too self conscious even now…

cloudypjseong

“i feel like we ran out of time. we could've fixed it all.” 
          
          I tried to do fix it back then. I tried to do something, something you asked for, but you just acted cold and rudely. 
          We did not run out of time, you chose to not have time anymore after I was back and ready to make it work, after I apologized for what I’ve reckoned I’ve done wrong. I tried. 
          So yes, I’m still blaming you. I am to blame on how it all started but you’re the one to blame on how it ended. 
          Now please leave me alone. It’s 2024 cmon, it’s time to move on. Both of us.

cloudypjseong

Never thought I’d relate to heather by conan or lacy by olivia but here I am…
          
          The inspiration for most of my male leads, the guy I’ve liked for 4 years, this whole time he liked one of my closest friends. 
          It’s not her fault nor his but like why her. She’s the reason why I’ve always felt a bit insecure abt myself. She pulls guys so effortlessly that she manage to attract the only one I wish she wouldn’t… 
          I don’t blame her cuz she’d never go for him after knowing all my struggles these years and I don’t blame him cuz how could u not like someone like her? Plus I accepted alrdy the fact that we’re just only gonna be friends but it just feels unfair to me…