Tw//eating disorders, mental illness
I usually don't talk about this but I felt inclined to lately and wanted to see if anyone else has experience or wants to talk concerning this subject because I feel really alone with it. It also explains why I'm not on here as much. I chose this platform to say this because it's where I feel most comfortable.
I've struggled with anorexia and bulimia for almost 3 years now, on and off. I keep recovering for a period of time (usually a few months) but I always end up relapsing at some point. The issue is further complicated by my other diagnoses (bipolar/ocd/adhd) as shifts in mood naturally impact your eating habits. I've found myself seesawing back and forth with my ed tendencies lately and it's had a major impact on my motivation, hence why I'm not on here as often and unable to write.
I don't receive treatment for my ed (I was determined to recover on my own) but I do with my other diagnoses. I'm not comfortable with seeking treatment for it right now, which is why I'm disclosing this because I just think it's important to acknowledge that something's wrong even if you don't feel okay with solving it. Because I know how long and hard I fought to deny what was going on, and how difficult it was to finally come to terms with it. I also want to say this is a safe space and if you ever want to talk, I highly encourage it.
This is a difficult time of the year for people with eds and I can't imagine what some people are going through.
Thank you for understanding, and most especially not pressuring updates or anything. I appreciate your support. I hope you're all staying safe and healthy ♡