coconutcutie🥥💜

you still alive girl?

i think i’m going to start another book, don’t even start withhhh meee cause ik i haven’t finished my other ones but sadly i hate to say it but i have officially fell out of love with love to hate me. nothings wrong with the book i just don’t have the motivation to keep righting in it. my other books i’ve been writing chapters for but i feel guilty about releasing them because i’m procrastinating on the one everyone’s begging me for. i apologize and i’m whilling for offer for someone to take over the book if you’d like but unless i come up with an idea for how i want it to continue then i don’t know where we stand 

bitchhhh u see how many reads u got on bonnie and cly thoughhhh

I can never catch a break. 

I swear to god I can never breathe. Life has been so good and of course some shit always gotta pop off wit me. 

update 

I unblocked her and I’m sitting next to her feeing stupid wondering why she doesn’t love me. Yay, back to old toxic ways. 

I’m done with her and the situation. She obviously don’t give a damn about me. I block her on all social media’s and I’m not gone be using them for a while cause I don’t have the patience or time. 

Update guys, she cheated on her girlfriend with me today. Do I feel bad? No. Did she grip my neck and force me into a kiss? Yes. Did I kiss back and put my tongue in her mouth? Absolutely. Did she pull me by my knee with her other hand, into her lap and begin gripping my ass? Maybe she’s a Scorpio, y’all decide. Did it make me write a sexual scene for one of my books? Yes. After that, did she keep feeling up on me and trying to kiss me again? Yes. Did I let her? No. Why? Because she has a girlfriend. “But coconut u said the girl was a hoe” she is and actively cheating but that doesn’t mean I have to get involved with their bullshit. I loved the kiss and stuff she probably gone never let it go and never gone leave me alone again after me kissing me her back because in the end we keep running back to each other as crazy as it may seem I don’t want this to become a cycle. We get into a relationship, respect boundaries for a while , cheat with each other then end up back to friends with benefits. But she’s not the problem I am. I’m the one not mentally ready for a relationship. She wants something serious with me and Ik i can’t love her fully until I have myself in order. But we are both afraid to open up to each other and even then at the same time she know me and my body way more than anyone I’ve ever met. I don’t know how to take this? Suggestions?

I can proudly say I don’t have one stable friend or relationship going for myself and having nobody is going to be the death of me. I was just about to update y’all’s mad say I haven’t updated because I feel genuinely happy nowadays but no it’s because I’m being used as an emotinal crunch and I’m slowly losing everything and everyone all while trying to smile through it. I might update on the bright side though if I don’t cry for the rest of my day