does anybody ever talk about how mentally exhausting it is once the adrenaline of working on an idea dies down? it's really something that wears me off most of the time. i remember being so mentally, emotionally, and physically alive last week, and now, i feel like I'm gonna suffer another mental block. the stress and anxiety building up is no joke but i guess, I'll manage. i always do. no one's rushing me to publish the "afterbeat" again, but i feel like i won't have peace as long as i can see the word "pending" on it. this is just me being too hard on myself like what my mother have said. no one's pressuring me but i have this inner urge to keep myself busy all the time so i work my body off by rendering some volunteer hospital and community duties personally while also being active in school (so i also volunteer to some hospitals whenever the department requests me to, i don't say no), plus i have my classes every Wednesdays and thursdays. so like 3-4 days of my week is spent on duties and the other two for classes, the remaining time, i spend it writing some drafts.
swear, in this current state of mine? maybe I'll spend most of my time in the hospital and not date at all.
