When you trying to be stay still, the world seems not worthy. All everything just confused, your emotion placed in very uncomfortable space, surrender by uncertain way.
This, this feeling that I am having I can’t describe. You want to feel everything, at the same time, you want to forget how to feel. The heart is too numb, to the point, you can’t seem to figure out your own beating.
It’s not the past I want to go back to, but this moment, in this present, I want to get away with it. I want to move on, move away as fast as I can, to be feel, to be able, to hear my own beating.