i may or may not have to down my cat today. the thing is, i’m supposed to be in a van on my way to a northern beach to go camping with my fellow seniors, but i had panic attack yesterday (and i got sick) so my parents finally allowed me not to go. there’s no programming for seniors this week, so i get to take the week off (except for tomorrow, my junior friend is giving a talk and i wanna see it). imagine how devastating it would be if i got home from a trip and one of my cats just wasn’t there?? both my mom and i ended up being glad i decided not to go. i really hope the vet says there’s something we can do to help my cat, but i don’t know.