It's like you like someone, but you don't really know how to like someone... Better yet, you like someone, but you're too scared of what they'd do to you or scared of what people would say. Society and friends and parents and family teaches you to not care what people think of you, but for some reason I can't help it. Maybe I'm trying to prove myself from all those years back? When people use to talk about me it's like I have to prove myself to them that I am worthy so I can be at rest? I honesty don't know. However, I feel like that is the reason now. I'm trying to figure myself out..