Chapter 33: “Darkness” || "I may be busy, but that doesn't make me blind or unavailable," she moves her hand, placing it on my own as I gazed back at her. "I love you, angel."
For some reason, the more she reached out to me and provided comfort to my shattering self, I felt worse. I felt like I was going to explode into tears and burst at the seams, and if I did, I wouldn't be sure I could come back from breaking down like that. I don't think I could explain to her why I would be sobbing without restraint, screaming like I was losing my mind, and pulling patches of my hair out like I had a horrible case of head lice.
With a wavering voice that was anything but stable and steady, I returned her words, "love you, too," and as I talked and fought with myself to hold back the waterfall and breakdown, I grabbed the door handle and rushed out like I couldn't breath, slamming the door shut.
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