consuming-buttercups

(Warning Vent 2)
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          	I’ve always known what to expect, hell I didn’t expect anything when I was a kid. As each day, weeks and years have passed. Including birthdays, the sicker I get from all of it. I’ve realized that I’m falling back to old patterns of not wanting to get involved in anything. I can barely keep up with my peers, I can barely keep up with myself. 
          	
          	It feels like a chore just by waking up, getting out, eating, doing work, taking care of myself. All I discovered from my life was that, nothing is gonna change. Even if I were to be the one to try taking the wheel of the boat. It gets repetitive. I just hope that future me, is able to compromise with things without always wanting to cause problems for personal entertainment.

consuming-buttercups

(Warning Vent 2)
          Skip or ignore if you don’t care. 
          
          
          I’ve always known what to expect, hell I didn’t expect anything when I was a kid. As each day, weeks and years have passed. Including birthdays, the sicker I get from all of it. I’ve realized that I’m falling back to old patterns of not wanting to get involved in anything. I can barely keep up with my peers, I can barely keep up with myself. 
          
          It feels like a chore just by waking up, getting out, eating, doing work, taking care of myself. All I discovered from my life was that, nothing is gonna change. Even if I were to be the one to try taking the wheel of the boat. It gets repetitive. I just hope that future me, is able to compromise with things without always wanting to cause problems for personal entertainment.

consuming-buttercups

Where do people find the persistence and will to still be alive, without dodging bullets? Humans being the main reason why I don’t wanna participate or even conform in any bs. Rather than solving conflicts and leave the past aside, they weaponize it. As a way to cause more issues or worsen it. Drama is great, however too much of it can lead to extinction.